| As we get older, we shape ourselves based on the
experiences and the paths we have chose to get to where we are at now.
Tho sometimes we start to reminisce on past moments, they will forever
live in our minds or our hearts. Those moments will never be taken away
as long as you have that last gasp of breath. Truthfully at times in my
life, i wish i could relive moments over and over from the past, but i
try to stand my ground and just appreciate and accept what is in front
of me, and what it has become.
Religion is a very touchy subject for me, and my
mind has pondered for a long time, as what is real, and what is not.
Tho the bible teaches and explains many of past events that have
happened, you think, could all this be true? Some may, and some may
not. Recently my eyes just been opened to a whole new perspective that
makes total sense, and it's not because of someone's influence but the
facts that were put out was what made me understand alot clearer. I
don't believe going to church every sunday, and alot of other things
that christians may do, but I know that in my heart, as long as u live
your life as a good person and continue to grow, that in the end, you
will understand, and you will find your peace. You will find your
"Heaven". It's been said manytimes that "you should treat others like
you want to be treated", and that's the truth, guess sometimes it just
has to be said out loud for you to realize and take in again. I believe
that Jesus is my Lord and Savior, and i believe that's all i really
need to know. God is Hope. I Thank the person that made me realize this
alot clearer, God will not judge u for the actions and wrong/right
doings that you've done in your life, it's you. Watching "Kingdom of
Heaven" gave me a better understanding of who, what, or why "God" is,
"God will understand. And if he doesn't, then he is not God and we need
not worry." I'm not scared anymore...
Wells, not really sure what i'm doin on christmas
eve nor new years, but i'm sure it'll work out for the best, long as i
get to see the wifey, than everything is all good. Still gotta go late
christmas shopping bleh! Yeah, damn filipino late for everything, even
christmas presents, all good tho.
Lately for me, ever since i got laid off (so if
anyone needs a worker, i'm the guy haha), been tryin to find clients
for websites, flyers, and any other sort of graphic design work, and
surely enough, its been goin good. Tryin to work do one thing at a
time, but as quick as i can, been tryin to contact people for work,
clients, whatever it takes. Plannin on how I'm gonna get my car, paying
off that damn ticket, so if anyone knows or who can help out finding
spare tires for a 95 neon that would be great, just let me know how
much. Probably going to spend alot before this year is over, but that's
ok, ill find a way. Been procrastinating too much lately, I just gotta
get things done.Feel like next year is gonna be really busy, but im
doing it because i want a bright and happy future. Time to step up my
game. Got 4 years, gotta make the best of it...Fuck it, imma stop right
here and stop talking, and instead start doing it.
Everyone have a safe Christmas and have a Happy New Year.
I Love You Baby, and you continue to bring the best out of me. I
understand.
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